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Am I Enough?

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My comfort in my suffering is this: Your promise preserves my life. Psalm 119:50   If I were to tell you being at home is so relaxing and comforting, I would be lying to you. It’s the 3470136 day of staying home.   This year has been so hard for me, losing my father, change after change at work, school ending early not saying bye to my babies. 2020 is not looking so great, to say I am so over this year would be an understatement. I’ve been so caught up in not trying to mourn the loss of everything that has happened to me this year, I lost myself.    I lost the joy within myself and plastered a smile on my face to keep up with appearances and a I’m ok, burying myself in making sure everything around me was good and  drowning my sorrows in work and everything else that would keep my mind from feeling sorry for situations. I find myself wondering not when but where did the  spark go. The spark of joy, of understanding and somewhere along the way fait...

A letter to my students...

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People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel -Maya Angelou My friend recently posted a letter written by an anonymous teacher how she felt and what it meant for her not to say bye to her students. The letter torn me in a million pieces because I want to see my students again, realistically will it happen? I trust in the Lord and I know he will hear my heart. Of course, when I read the letter, I thought it would make a great post, needless, to say it has been very heartbreaking writing this. Dear Students,             How I miss you? I miss your smiles and your hugs. I miss you telling me about your weekends and how you didn’t study for your test next period. How you need help with a problem. I miss waving at you in the hallway or sneaking you a snack. I miss hearing your problems and letting you know you have to see the problem from two way...

Having Faith during the Coronavirus.

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If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal  their land. 2 Corinthians 7:14 I t’s Day 374927 of who knows  how long this will go on… This year has been one of the craziest for me and we are only in the 3 rd month. I refuse to sit in front of my T.V. and watch it all day. I have though watched 2 documentaries one about counterfeit make-up, the other about a Tiger King, started a Harry Potter movie marathon. I’ve watched Snapped and Killer Couples. I’ve read, I don’t know how many books, started a Golden Girls puzzle that lasted a whole 5 minutes, Cleaned, cleaned and did I mentioned clean. This is  not what I pictured doing after Spring Break. I pictured myself going back to work and asking the students how their Spring Break was between class or walking them to class, not working from home....

Educate from the heart..

Act like what you do matter-IT DOES.  I’ve always known I wanted to be an Educator. It’s the occupation that creates all other Occupations in Life. The least payed but the most awarding and fulfilling.  Teacher is a funny word to me, anyone can be a teacher, you can teach a dog new tricks, you can teach a child right from wrong. As a teacher you instruct what is to be done. Throughout my educational journey, I have come across several teachers. An Educator is one of those people who go above and beyond the call of duty. As an Educator you make relationships with students more importantly than the content but because of relationships Educators make with their students, the content comes alive. It is because of these Educators not working for a “paycheck”, that provide one of the most powerful weapons in the world: Education (Nelson Mandela). It’s not how much you do, but what you do that matters the most. To these Educators, I want to say Thank You.  ...

The Forgiven Prostitute

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Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised-Proverbs 31:30 Lately, I have being struggling to not let the enemy steal my joy. You guys know, how I love to smile and lift everyone’s spirit. These last two  weeks have been crazy. I must admit for a second I did begin to doubt myself and then I get reminded of one of my favorite women in the bible; Rahab, yes the harlot! Her story reminds me of the  purpose God has in our life.  God has a purpose for pain, a purpose for struggles and at the end a reward of faithfulness.  Imagine this Prostitute, who has has been graced by God’s mercy. She outsmarted  the King of Jericho by hiding the spies Joshua sent. Even though Rahab learned and knew her city was about to be destroyed by God. She acknowledge our loving God; “and as soon as we heard it, our hearts melted, and there was no spirit left in any man because of you, for the Lord your G...

Grateful, Thankful and Blessed...

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I will give thanks to you,  Lord , with all my heart.    I will tell of all your wonderful deeds. Psalm 9:1 As I sit and ponder the many things that I thankful and grateful for I can’t help but think of the blessings in my life that    are grand or minuscule.  I have always wanted to compose a list of things that God has blessed me with without feeling guilty of it. I have learned that God’s blessings can always be shared in hopes of blessing others that might be going through the same thing or waiting for an unanswered prayer. Things I am  Grateful   BLESSED with: 1.     Mercy and Grace:  Having  mercy is God  not giving  us what we  do  deserve and grace is God  giving  us something we  do not  deserve. Saving grace is grace from God that provides salvation to anyone who ask.  In  Ephesians 2:8-9  it is written, "For by grace you hav...

Dear Ashley, An Open Letter to Myself...

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She opens her mouth in wisdom and the teaching of kindness is upon her tongue. -Proverbs 31:26 Dear Ashley,                You are finally the big 3-0. No fancy balloons, no photoshoot; although, that would be lovely, no fancy getaway( I am so planning one). You have created a strong foundation for yourself that essentially will carry you the rest of your life. A few things you have learned in your wise years: YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH… Value Yourself:  You always used to think in order to feel valued or accomplished you had to work your butt off and finish every and any task that was given to you. It is ok to say NO  and not feel bad about it.  It is perfectly fine to put it down for tomorrow. Sometimes you have that voice of fear talking to you and saying, “you should have, you could have.” You worried so much that, at this age already you should have your masters degree but in ...