Single and Saved



The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. –Psalm 34:18

As I was sat in church today, my brain was multi-tasking like always, listening to my Pastor in one ear, Emma-Gene in the other. I have the tendency of flipping my bible and reading the devotions that are included. As I read the devotion that my bible opened to, I knew it was meant for me and those thousands who are me.



As embarrassing and scary has it is for me to say I AM SINGLE. I have never had a boyfriend. Of course, I have had those unrequited “loves” and secretly have had crushes. Like every girl, I have dreamed of getting married and having my own family. I try not to stress about it because I know that I cannot make anyone love me. Why lie, yes I have shed many, many tears: Why am I single? What is wrong with me? I have always been the good, sweet, loving, innocent girl that has been everyone’s “best friend” Although, sometimes it seems like those words are so harsh, they are compliments who I am personally and spiritually.
As hard as it is to be single and not have anyone enjoy your life with it is NOT the end of the word. It may feel like you are all alone in this world but you are not God is ALWAYS with you. No matter how many heartaches you have had wondering why not this one. I believe that God will send somebody who is meant exactly for me. In the meantime, I must learn to fall in love with myself and most importantly fall back in love with God.
            God has me in the palm of his hand and knows what my future is. If it includes getting married or not, I know that God loves me and I love him. I have to learn to realize that importance that I have in people’s life who choose to love me for me and wait and pray patiently for that person whose love will be God’s and mine.
Remind me father God, that true love is worth the wait.


XO
-Ash

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